I'm not smiling. I wish I could.

I thought I'd rest and I'd wake up with some brand new energies. But I couldn't. I was able to sleep but I kept on waking up again and again. It's not fair to be 6415 km away from what's happening. I'm torturing myself and I must stop that. I have to have faith and believe that someday, She'll be back. I hope She'll realize that it was all a nightmare, it was a fact in my life, not a behaviour. I need that chance. I really need that chance because I can't live knowing that the person I care for thinks I am all a big lie, a big trouble, when the only thing I am is a person who has commited an error. A person who has commited an error for love. Don't I deserve to be forgiven??