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Jordi is back!

He's back from Argentina and Chile. After spending 4 weeks in South America, he's arriving to NYC again just to pick up his luggage and then he'll go back home to Barcelona.
We practically landed in the US together. I met him randomly in the East Village, while I was speaking on the phone. Suddenly, I heart two people talking in Catalan and I couldn't avoid stopping them. When you are away, you feel closer to the ones speaking your mother tongue even if they have nothing else in common with you. Actually, Jordi and his friend Magali (the one he was speaking with while walking on the streets) seemed no to have much in common with me... But then, day after day, I discovered they had this kind of ambition, projects, plans in life, and even though they are only 19, I started to feel so comfortable when spending time together with them.
Magali had to leave New York before she expected, but Jordi stayed and we became really close friends. I could say he has been one of the nicest people I've met in the City that never sleeps. One of these people who has a goal, who has that cool energy, a good vibe, a sense for art, a well-built brain, a conversation to share.
New York won't only remain in my mind for the times I spent here, but also for those I met.

I can marry Madonna :D

"When Leo and Scorpio join together in a love match, the result is usually a dynamic and intense union. They are well tuned in to one another's needs; Scorpio demands respect and to be wanted while Leo needs to be adored and complimented constantly. They are both extremely loyal, and often possessive of one another. Both members of this love match are able to give the other what they need and while enjoying one another's strengths.

Leo relishes comfort and luxury, often doing things on a grand scale. Leo tends to be flamboyant, and Scorpio will appreciate that and will be happy to be the audience Leo requires as long as there is equality in the relationship. Leo shines brighter and more insistently, evolving into the living, breathing manifestation of magnificence and luxury. Scorpio shies away from the limelight but likes to control the mechanics. Because both Signs are so determined, these partners really need to work to understand and accept one another.

Leo is ruled by the Sun while Scorpio is ruled by the Planets Mars and Pluto. The Sun is about ego and self, and it radiates warmth and light. Leo indeed emits this kind of zeal and enthusiasm. Mars is about war, brashness and battle, and Pluto is the influence on Scorpio's inner dialogue. Ruled by the House of Sex, Pluto influences the idea of regeneration and rebirthing that is a current theme in Scorpio's life. Together, this abundance of male energy causes Leo and Scorpio to lighten their conflicts and assist one another. The Sun represents life, and Mars and Pluto represent ambition and the unconscious; as long as they take the time to really understand one another on a deep level, their romance is a positive one with high expectations.

Leo is a Fire Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. Leo demands the freedom to mingle, while Scorpio has a chameleon personality. Both Signs want to lead, but in different ways, and this common desire could end up causing ripples in an otherwise steady, smooth relationship. Like the Elements that influence them, these two have the ability to cancel one another out. At times, their relationship may not be so harmonious. However, both partners will realize that petty disputes are only a distraction, and as long as they can keep their egos at bay and give the relationship top priority, their conflicts can usually be resolved.

Scorpio and Leo are both Fixed Signs. Both can be rigid, opinionated and resistant to change. They both tend to be persistent when working toward their goals. If they have a plan, they'll stick to it until they get what they want. They usually share a reluctance to change, preferring a stable and steady road. If they have dissimilar ideas about something, they may end up in a never-ending cycle of struggles. Scorpio won't budge because to them, it would be a sign of weakness. And Leo may think Scorpio is being too self-righteous. If they understand they're on the same side in the larger scheme of things, it's much easier for them to remain productive.

What's the best aspect of the Leo-Scorpio relationship? It's their shared sense of dedication to one another and the projects they partake in. Both Signs have very powerful, yet strategically different, personalities. They are seen as a strong pair by others, and their dedication to fulfilling their desires makes theirs a strong love match."

From: http://www.canada.com/findit/astrology/love/compatibility/scorpio.html

HIV

What would it happen if I was suddenly found to be HIV positive? I don't really know. I can't even imagine it. The thing is that I would not only care about my own health, but I would care about the social stigma around it. HIV is not only a STD, it's also a label.
People suffering from this illness become scared of facing it and telling the truth to the world as the world is not prepared yet to accept it as an illness only transmitted by body fluids such as sperm or blood. You can't get infected by sitting next to a HIV positive person, neither you can by sharing a glass of water.
If I was found HIV positive, I'd only ask to be surrounded by people who could understand how important love is. How important friendship is. How important life is.

... And I told Him: "HIV is like your own baby: treat him right, do the best for him, eat healthy food so he is well fed, be content so he notices it, feel happy, feel good, try to educate him. Protect him from extreme temperatures, as you would protect your child. Don't take drugs, as you would never give them to your own son. Be careful when consuming liquors, as he can get drunk and do bad things. If you treat him OK, he will treat you right too. If you try to treat him badly, He will die, and you will die jointly with him".

Back from Miami!

And my iTouch played X-Static Process by Madonna...

I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am

I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call
I'm not myself at all

I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too

I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
Don't know what I believe

I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too
I always wished that I could find someone as talented as you
But in the process I forgot that I was just as good as you

And I will never forget that again! :)
Pics and videos from Miami coming soon. Hahaha, I had a blast!!!!!!

Why do people buy online?

There's no other city in the US as New York. Not only from a social point of view, but from comparing it to the usual American way of life. I reckon it's one of the only cities here where you don't need a car to move yourself around. People tend to live in houses more than in flats (or apartments), and shops aren't normally on the streets. They are located in malls (such horrible places, God!). But it doesn't happen here in the biggest city of the country.
Then, I believe people living anywhere else in the States, once saw how important Internet could be for them in order to buy whatever. From food to cars. From clothes to swimming pools. They didn't need to drive to a Mall. And we all know how lazy Amerticans are! Apart from that, online shops do not have to have a physical place to display their products, so the final price to the costumer is significantly reduced compared to the same product bought in a traditional shop.
Last week I decided to try this channel of distribution, even though I am living in NYC. I used to use Internet just for communicating with friends, writing emails and working. Now I discovered another use! :)
Here is what I bought: a pair of sunglasses. The price in shops is around 150 dollars, and I got them for 127 (tax and delivery included) at www.coolframes.com. They told me I was going to receive them in approx 12 days, and it just took a week for my RayBan to arrive to my apartment. Isn't it cool??
CoolFrames delivers internationally, with a fixed price of around 25 dollars. So, if you need a pair of glasses, I highly recommend this site.
I will let you know what I'm going to buy online next... Stay tunned!

Miami!Miami!

Welcome to Miami, bienvenido a Miami...!!!!!

Thank God I have the best friends ever! Tino thanks for helping me in such bad moments. Thanks for your friendship, for your happiness, for your efforts to make me feel better. Thanks for being in New York. Thanks for being there when no one else is. Thanks for taking me to Miami with you. For being such a good person. For sharing your problems with me. For letting me share my problems with you.
We all commit errors. But I have no doubt that you are one of the best people on Earth. You are always there when I am falling. Let's fly together again!!!!!

YUUUUUUUUUUUHU. Taking my plane tomorrow morning. Will be back Monday evening.

I'm not smiling. I wish I could.

I thought I'd rest and I'd wake up with some brand new energies. But I couldn't. I was able to sleep but I kept on waking up again and again. It's not fair to be 6415 km away from what's happening. I'm torturing myself and I must stop that. I have to have faith and believe that someday, She'll be back. I hope She'll realize that it was all a nightmare, it was a fact in my life, not a behaviour. I need that chance. I really need that chance because I can't live knowing that the person I care for thinks I am all a big lie, a big trouble, when the only thing I am is a person who has commited an error. A person who has commited an error for love. Don't I deserve to be forgiven??

No more sadness

Today I hurt Her and I hurt Myself. Yes, that's what happens sometimes when you lose control with what you have in your hands.
There's no way back. I've begged, but it seems there's nothing I can do. Something's ended but I've never been a sad person, so I will do my best to wake up a bit more happy tomorrow. I like laughing, smiling, having fun. I'm a positive human being. People like me because I do normally see things from a logical point of view. I try to be objective. I have to put this logical and this sense to what I am feeling right now.
World never ends. It never stops. It goes round and round. Life goes round and round. No time for too much sadness. No time for bad feelings.
So now, I will go to bed, think for a while, relax my body, and I'll be asleep. That's what I need: a rest. And then, when I wake up, it will be a better day. And hopefully, my smile will shine again.

"Give me one more chance", She said.

I confessed.

Everyone should be confident with their feelings. Mine got me crazy. I tried to forget. I tried to hide. I tried to get rid of them. And I hurt myself by not being sincere to my beloved ones. But then, suddenly, in the middle of panic, in the middle of craziness, in the middle of a desperate state of mind, I realized that the most important thing I have is myself. My heart, my body and my mind.
And today I confessed. I felt like a child, crying and crying. Words came to my mouth and I decided to spread them. I never felt so bad. And I never feel so good.
Thanks Mummy, I knew you were not going to leave me.

So what now?

"Happiness lies in your own hand", She said.

Things happening on 21st May

1. It's my mother's bday. She's turning 56. She doesn't look like she's 56 though, LOL!
2. The light in my bedroom went down. And I just changed it 3 days ago. Unbelievable.
3. Finally, sun shines again in Manhattan after some rainy days. Let's see what happens in the afternoon.
4. I have to pay the bill for my American cell phone. Higher than ever.
5. Xevi is asking me how to buy tickets to see Madonna in Paris and I sadly had to told him that they are sold out... Gosh!
6. I'm on my period, so I'm in a doggy mood.
7. Market reports are invading my mind. How can I forget about them? I wasn't born to deal with statistics!!!!!!
8. Calimero needs new batteries (might it be related to the death of the light in my room??)
9. I wish I had a word from Her.
10. I am just a Life, alive. Dealing with small problems compared to the big ones affecting our world. Hunger, AIDS, wars, global warming, terrorism, injustice. How insignificant I feel when I think of the horrible issues around us. But I can't help being happy or sad for these things that happen to me in my daily life. I have to thank whoever placed me here for giving me that chance of breathing, being healthy, and having love around me.

Wedding in Las Vegas

One of my colleagues from work is getting married in Las Vegas on Sunday. He's gonna dress up like Elvis and the future wife is gonna look like Marylin. The thing is that I don't have my plane ticket to travel there yet! Prices for flights are so high just 2 days before flying... Yes, I know, it'll be once in a lifetime... But I already visited LV some years ago and there's nothing in the apart from big hotels and tremendous casinos in the middle of nowhere. When you get there by plane, you can't believe what your eyes see: a vast desert and then, suddenly, houses, and building, and more buildings. Like an Oasis.
So I'll have to wait for a divine signal from Heaven to decide myself and take the decision of going or not. Anyway, I wish all the best to the couple.

Back to blogspot!

Hi again! I just deleted my old Blogspot and created this new one. The other was all written in Spanish and this time I decided to make it in English. Don't ask me why since the vast majority of people who are going to have a look at it are Spaniards... But you never know ;)
As Madonna said in one of her songs from the Confessions on the Dancefloor album, "time goes by so slowly for the ones who wait"... Which is not my situation at all. Time in New York is going faster than expected. I can't believe I've been living here for about 8 months now. That 3rd October 2007 is far behind! I still remember when I wondered if I was going to stay here for the whole period... And it seems I'm doing it.
Well, I hope you all come and read me whenever. It will be a pleasure to be back with the Blog community.